I often joke that if I had the choice to
travel down a hard road or an easy one, I’d be easing on down the easy road
every time. This research methods class
that I’m enrolled in now at Trinity University is very difficult. It's giving me a
lot of angst and making me uncomfortable.
Today, my online forum work was about content analysis. I viewed a video that showed research about how
people are not really motivated to work harder at their jobs when they received
bonuses. People are more motivated by
things such as meaningful duties, creativity, challenges, ownership, identity, and
pride. These things were more motivational
for working hard than money. Also
contributing to society and making an impact were more rewarding.
While I personally know this to be true,
there is something deep inside of telling me to quit this class; it’s too
hard. I’m losing sleep, I can’t
compete. I’m in over my head. I have felt this many times during my tenure
at Trinity and what seems to motivate me is earning an ‘A’ at the end of each
course. I believe I’m having internal
struggles with my inner child. Today
little Liz put up a good fight; kicking, screaming, and temper tantrums. But I’m in control and I say we must push pass
the pain; take some Advil if needed, and finish this race.
Hi, I’m Liz Hawkins and I’m an Adult
Child of an Alcoholic.
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