One thing that I do not like is change to my environment. A few months ago, I was placed on a temporary work detail for 120 days to another position within the organization. My hope was that once the detail expired I would returned to my job. But when I asked management about it, I was told that the detail would be extended for another 120 days.
I did not like this news. My anxiety levels nearly went through the roof. Then I began having a recurring dream. I dreamed that I was in a building that I could not seem to find the exit. Each door I opened led to another room but none led me outside; where I wanted to be. Finally, I checked the dream catcher app on my mobile phone and learned that a door represents a new beginning or a transition from one phase of life to another. This did not surprise me. In fact, deep down I knew this was true, and that I would most likely remain on the work detail. My ACOA denial trait was in full force.
But I remembered the Alcoholics Anonymous serenity prayer; ACOA has a similar prayer: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. So I am resting in this serenity and taking things one day at a time. I see it as another opportunity to grow.
Hi, I'm Liz Hawkins and I'm a recovering Adult Child of an Alcoholic.
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